Monthly Archives: June 2015

Study Week Blog.4: Motivation is no more

So I have completed 3 out of my 4 major exams for this end of semester and I have no motivation to continue to study for the 4th.  My final exam is pharmacology, which is important to know, but since I am transferring to Canada and can take the course again, I think I’m calling it quits for this semester.  I have never felt so exhausted and emotionally drained after a school semester as much as I have with this one.  I feel like stressing myself out to the max to study for pharmacology will only continue my downward spiral into severe stress and slight depression, and I want to start feeling better.  If anyone is thinking that I should just do it, let me tell you that this pharmacology course is by-far one of the most poorly organized courses I have seen yet at Endeavour College.  It is even mentioned by the teacher in the introduction to the course that if you have a full-time job or not enough time then you should consider not doing the course, but how can that be said??  International students have to do 6 courses a semester!! How unfair!!   I might be justifying it to myself but that’s because I have never failed a course, ever!  So this is a huge decision for me.  I feel like the anxiety is getting to me and every-time I look at the course content I get this overwhelming feeling of panic….. I think I would prefer to try again, and I am hoping that the course in Canada is better set out so I actually learn something through the semester, which was not the case for this course.  Any-ways this is my thinking, and I feel like I’ve dedicated enough of my time to this degree thus fair. I am prepared to move on and continue in Canada.   If someone is thinking about going into this program I highly urge you to think about only doing part-time study if possible because the stress is not worth having a lack of life/school balance.  Hope this doesn’t scare you off but its definitely something to keep in mind.  Thanks for reading, and be aware and eat with care 🙂

Articles + handout: Can mindfulness be empirically studied?


Empirical definition of mindfulness:  

‘full attention to internal and external experiences as they occur in the present moment’ and ‘an attitude characterized by non-judgment of, and openness to, this current experience’

-Gotink et al. (2015, p.2)

Article 1: Mindfulness systematic review article

Article 2: Buddhist mindful vs contemporary psychology paradox article

Article 3/handout: 10.MindfulnessinEverydayLife

Recently, lots of people have been talking about being mindful, but I never really got the concept or understanding on how to be mindful, and I always questioned it validity, so I researched it.  I found a lot of articles trying to empirically test if mindfulness does have a physical and mental effect, and most conclude that mental change occurs in relation to depression and anxiety, but physical change is yet to be seen.  In any case mindfulness is used a therapeutic technique for people with chronic illness and is also becoming fairly mainstream. I’ve lost my mindfulness and wish to become more grounded by using the techniques outlined in article 3/handout.  I hope you enjoy learning about the empirical evidence around mindfulness, and give it a try yourself!  Make your own conclusions.  Did it help you?  Thanks for reading, and be aware and eat with care 🙂


Article 1: Gotink, R, Chu, P, Busschbach, J, Benson, H, Fricchione, G, & Hunink, M 2015, ‘Standardised Mindfulness-Based Interventions in Healthcare: An Overview of Systematic Reviews and Meta-Analyses of RCTs’, Plos ONE, 10, 4, pp. 1-17, Academic Search Premier, EBSCOhost, viewed 12 June 2015.

Article 2: Huxter, M 2012, ‘Buddhist mindfulness practices in contemporary psychology: A paradox of incompatibility and harmony’,Psychotherapy In Australia, 18, 2, p. 26, Informit Health Collection, EBSCOhost, viewed 12 June 2015.

Article 3/handout:

Study Week Blog.3: Pondering change

Well the feeling of being in purgatory is starting to become accustomed to me now.  I wake up, get a coffee and sit at my desk for hours memorizing….. o joy.  Not the most glamorous experience I’ve ever had, but its all for the knowledge of health and wellness…. which I seem to be lacking by doing this….. how contradicting.  Its funny, and I assume, that students becoming doctors go through the same contradicting school experience.  Let’s learn all about health and wellness but then sit in this desk and study for 5 major exams or do numerous projects, and then wonder why you don’t have time to take care of OUR mind, body and soul, ha, irony.  I read this funny billboard on the tram the other day that said, “Did life get in the way of reaching your degree?….”.  Now I don’t know about you, but that seems kinda F’d up.  Shouldn’t reaching your degree and life coincide?   Shouldn’t you have the time to gain knowledge, progress yourself and integrate other amazing things like experiences with friends and family all together?  When I see things like this I always go back to this belief that there is a fundamental flaw with the system.  The collective mentality that we need to stop life, and be something. Does going to school and getting a piece of paper really make us into something greater?  Can we not be amazing people with the skills we have now?  Don’t get me wrong you need to go to school to become a doctor, or you can kill people, its pretty simple, but I mean there are a lot of people that just go, experience life and become amazing in some field of work.  I feel like there needs to be a huge change in our mentality that we need to put “life” on hold to become what we want to be.  Its something to ponder at least.  Any-ways, this is something that I’ve been thinking about for awhile.  I originally went travelling to open my mind to new experiences and really find myself, and I did to a certain point, but I’ve also lost a bit of my identity along the way.  I always questioned the system, but travelling actually made me feel like I was more in the system because I always had to tell an immigration officer where I’ve been, go through numerous security checks, and pay thousands of dollars to stay in a country that isn’t that keen on foreigners….. it messes with your head about your actual freedom.  I guess I’ve gained a greater respect for where I came from, as its been 5 years being away from home.  I’m actually more worried about the adjustment going home then travelling, because every-time I come home its like time stopped.  Change is a pretty crazy thing and I really thought I was good with it, but there’s a point in your life that you see change as something scary because it means redefining who you thought you were.  I guess all this travelling actually did do what it was intended to, I have found a whole different identity that will hopefully propel me into something great when I get home.  I’m scared and excited and happy and sad all at the same time.  I hope you have amazing experiences that constantly change your identity for the better. It doesn’t have to involve travel, you can do it just by trying new things everyday, the scarier the better! You’ll discover this amazing side to yourself you didn’t realize was there, so good luck!  Enjoy and embrace change, because its really our only constant in life.  Thanks for reading, and be aware and eat with care 🙂