Break Blog.8: Feeling Deflated

So this week has been pretty much the same as the others.  I’m still trying to get back into my groove, but I bought a car which was pretty exciting.  I don’t know what it is, but I just have this sense of emptiness that I can’t seem to shake.  I don’t know if its because I miss Melbourne, or if its something else, but it’s getting me down big-time.  The summer is so beautiful in Calgary, everything is so green, and I love nature so much, but for some reason it isn’t giving me any joy. I used to love to walk the dogs when I came for visits, and now I get to the dog park and I don’t feel.  I see myself slipping into depression, but there isn’t really anything in my life to be depressed about…. Its a really strange feeling.  Its like I’m living, but not actually feeling.  I don’t like it.  I have been doing mindfulness/meditation and yoga and I think I really need to start running again now that I’m feeling better physically.  I might even try some St.John’s Wort, which is a herbal treatment option for depression.  I hope I get out of this funk soon because I really want to enjoy my time with my friends and family before I move to BC, and I don’t want to continue to feel this way on my road-trip to the coast.   Hope your not feeling like me, but if you are then I’m going to post an article about natural depression treatments from 2006.  Not as recent as I wanted, but very comprehensive.  Thanks for reading, and be aware and eat with care 🙂